make it real..
since i have nothing to do but wait for the stores to finish the batching of the lots i am currently handling, and i forgot the password for my dearest word document that i consider my diary (it’s where i write evrything that i feel and think), better yet post nlang at my blog. got nothing to do tlga..hay..
i was totally "bangag" khpon, i was quite bothered, dunno why. i just felt it.. it sumtimes come across me, that unusual feeling is really unbecoming.
i have certain struggles that i do not wish to impart to anybody. but there are instances that i just cant help my self from telling some one what i feel. much like a confidant, i think is someone i long for..some one who would listen to me.. got some premonitions but i do forgot them most of the time..
i’m thankful that i have friends who are so dear..so nice.. i miss them actually.. to name a few–joy, erna, arnee..and there’s also this one person that really keeps me delighted. i feel light with him. haha..the thoughts of him somewhat makes me smile. i dont know. but that’s what i feel. so nice..i just think, things kept on getting better..
i think i like the song "fallin"..maybe because it somewhat has something to do with the way i feel.. here it goes:
I’m afraid to fly
And I don’t know why
I’m jealous of the people the who are not afraid to die
It’s just that I recall
Back when I was small
Someone promise that they’d catch me
But then they let me fall
And now I’m fallin’
Fallin’ fast again
Why do I always take a fall
When I fall in love
You think by now i’ve learned
Play with fire
You’ll get burn
But fire can be oh so warm
And that’s why i return
Turn and walk away
That’s what i should do
My head says go and find the door
My heart says i found you
And now I’m fallin
Catch me if you can
Maybe this time I’ll have it all
When I fall in love
Loving someone…
I only got me to blame
help me i’m fallin fallin
Catch me if you can
Maybe this time i’ll have it all
Maybe i’ll make it after all
Maybe this time
I won’t fall
When I fall in love
hay..life..it has its own way of turning things over..im a jolly person, indeed. but there are many things that is still left unsaid. i’d rather keep things on my own coz i dont want others to feel the pain and emptiness i have,, i actually don’t really think about those stuff often. only when i have nothing to do..well, i guess, that’s when the devil is doing his work..indeed, devil plays his role when you’ve got notthing to do..so better yet, keep yourself busy.. besides, i think (in my opinion), it would be unfair for the person listening..he or she’ll will just get tired. i dont want to frustrate others. words are so influential that you might just give the wrong que. well, just keep it yourself..or better, do this stuff.. write!!!
weird? nope, i think its but natural..
frustrated? nope, just speaking out..
happy? definitely..
contented? not much but i must say things are nice enough..
hay…bye for now..got other things to attend ulit..
